Words, images and documents by or collected by Jessica Schouela
Thursday, 30 June 2022
Wednesday, 29 June 2022
Sally Rooney, Beautiful World, Where Are You
This book spoke so directly to my current thoughts, feelings, experience. I found it incredibly moving.
Here are two passages. One on bisexuality:
One on motherhood at this moment:
Tuesday, 28 June 2022
Friday, 24 June 2022
Monday, 20 June 2022
Sunday, 19 June 2022
A Proustian experience of green
It is fitting that on Father's Day I found a t-shirt (which I bought) that is of a green so exact and evocative of a green t-shirt my father had from his time as a student in Chicago, which he later gave to me and which I wore until it was full of holes. It was incredibly soft, made even softer by the years of use and thinness it has acquired as a result.
We often think of smell or taste as the sense that most often acts as a catalyst for a nostalgia or recollection so vivid and visceral that it evades awareness or access, intellect or contemplation, or a considered approach to memory. I have had this experience most affectively through the happenstance collision of two smells that bind together: a certain kind of paper towel made of specific fibres and an equally specific soap, found always in a public bathroom. This olfactory combination takes me right back to the bathroom in my kindergarten, which I can still picture.
To have this Proustian experience not via smell or taste but rather, via colour, and then to consider this subsequently, further brings me back to being a scholar of art history, when I would not infrequently spend time thinking about colour intentionally, expansively, phenomenologically, aesthetically, politically, emotionally, and so on. I'm thinking of Malevich, Josef Albers, Marlow Moss, Agnes Martin - there are more.